When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I heard this song a couple of months ago and was totally hooked on it. I would listen to it almost every day and hum it now and then. When I watched the video, I cried especially the part where this old man was remembering his late wife. That really touched my heart... now, whenever this song comes on - I'd switch channels because just hearing the start of the song, would make me cry. This song is something I can relate to since the demise of my mother. All the members of my family can. Eddie told me this evening that just a few days ago (if I remember it correctly), he was singing it and then the thought of our mother and how much he is missing her... he ended up crying. I know what he was talking about.

El texted me a few minutes ago that he misses mummy. So do I. An hour or so ago, daddy and I got home from Ezy's. I unlocked the front door and I pictured mummy - greeting us at the door... just like she used to. Washing the dishes, reminds me of her - standing at one corner or just on the other side of the kitchen talking to me.

I posted about the ring that I really like - thinking about it now, I wish I had shared with her the website. I'm sure she would love the ring. When I showed her my ring, she said it was very pretty. I told her that someone said the ring I am wearing now isn't 'big' - my mother was appalled by that and I told her, it's okay cause it's not how big or expensive it is but what's important is what it symbolizes and who it's from. I remember what my mother said to that - "I have brought you up pretty well, I am proud that you think that way". My mother and father did bring me and my brothers up very well, I'd like to think so anyway.

I miss my mother so much. I know we all have to move on but I just need some time. I wasn't mentally prepared to go back to work (I'm still not quite prepared!) but I had to... and it is taking a toll on me as I couldn't really concentrate on work for the past few days.

I don't remember having a picture taken of my mother and I together... not recently and at this moment, it's something that I regret not having!