My sexy BF gave me a wake up cum birthday call this morning at 07:00!!! I loved it! I just love hearing his voice - any time of the day. I wish he was here.. not necessarily on my birthday but every day of my life!!!
Thank you, my love for the call. I really appreciate it and it was a very pleasant surprise! Didn't expect it at all.
Thank you for your entry. I do know that you love me and I believe you... but I guess you can't blame me for having those fears? It's quite hard for me sometimes... but it doesn't mean that I don't believe you when you tell me how you feel about me. You do know that lately, it has been hard for us both with what went on...
Please bear in mind that I love you deeply.... I wouldn't want it any other way, my love!
xxxx
- Babylove
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Okay, so I don't wanna start a new entry, instead I just continue from this recent entry.
It's 20:56PM. J is busy looking through Friendster and I don't have much to do at work today. Did all the phone calls (aarrgghh - I hate making phone calls) and now, almost done with the paperwork. What next? No bloody idea.
I can't wait to go home. I have been on a long holiday and coming back to work today has been a drag!!
Dad just called and said my second brother is back from Sarawak. I don't understand that brother of mine. On the first day of Raya, heck during the entire week of Raya (usually the first day is THE day for you to ask for forgiveness) he didn't call nor text my parents to wish them. He didn't call on my father's birthday, not on mummy's birthday yesterday and certainly no calls for me either today. I really don't care about him not wishing me, really, I have given up on that but he could have called up my parents. Not on birthdays, fine but no wishes on Eid Mubarak? That is way too much. I'm the one that has to see them all sad and disappointed. He doesn't see how hurt my parents are but I do. There is so much one can take, you know.
Recently, my second brother mentioned something about furnitures to my parents. Stating that he bought them some fine furnitures - yeah okay, fine but don't think that by buying material things all are forgotten. It doesn't work that way, not in my book and most certainly not in my parents' books. It does not make things better. They'd rather have you around than those things. I would know. He hasn't seen his grand-daughter for almost 5 and half years now, meeting HER would BE THE gift! Put aside your differences for the sake of your child and her grandfather! This really pisses me off! I go home all the time and lately, this is all I hear about. I'm not angry at my parents for talking to me about this, I'm angry at my brother and wife for being such an arse about this whole issue. It's too friggin' long already - GET OVER IT!!!!!!
Friday, October 19, 2007
Seriously...
I feel like screaming right now. Or punching someone in the face!!!
I know I won't be able to sleep because I am missing him so much.
I feel so stupid right now. I don't even know why I feel stupid.
I need to vent. I really do.
Why of all the nights, the stupid colleague decided to stay late? Really... WHY?
What does the world has against me????? WHAT????
- Frustrated birthday girl
I know I won't be able to sleep because I am missing him so much.
I feel so stupid right now. I don't even know why I feel stupid.
I need to vent. I really do.
Why of all the nights, the stupid colleague decided to stay late? Really... WHY?
What does the world has against me????? WHAT????
- Frustrated birthday girl
Happy Birthday to me - yeay
No words can describe how frustrated I am right now. I was so looking forward to seeing you tonight. You're right, it's not okay. I don't feel okay at all. I feel so f*cking pissed off right now. Not at you but at everything else that is against us.
I can't even type right now. I've never been this frustrated. It's my birthday and I'm frustrated. Stupid tears won't fucking stop!!!!!
I can't even type right now. I've never been this frustrated. It's my birthday and I'm frustrated. Stupid tears won't fucking stop!!!!!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Overcoming your fears !!
My babygirl - I do LOVE you.....I do care for you very much!! But to be honest....I do not think that you really believe that I do. You do not really believe me when I say these words...?
I realise what your deepest fears are my love.....I know why and I understand where they come from !! I also know that there's probably not that much I can say to take these fears away.....You, my babygirl, you alone can overcome your fears....But I want you to know that I am there for you & I am trying real hard to be there for you as much as possible!
Things might seem impossible at times, but every day, all around us, that which seemed impossible in the past, becomes a possibility! Remember this - believe in it and before we know it, our wishes for each other could come true xxx
Love u always.....Love u with all my heart xxx
I realise what your deepest fears are my love.....I know why and I understand where they come from !! I also know that there's probably not that much I can say to take these fears away.....You, my babygirl, you alone can overcome your fears....But I want you to know that I am there for you & I am trying real hard to be there for you as much as possible!
Things might seem impossible at times, but every day, all around us, that which seemed impossible in the past, becomes a possibility! Remember this - believe in it and before we know it, our wishes for each other could come true xxx
Love u always.....Love u with all my heart xxx
Mummy's Birthday!
Happy Birthday to my mummy!!
I haven't bought her prezzie yet. Will do so later when I go out for early dinner with my eldest brother and wife. Plan is for both her sons & wives to come over for dinner but El & Jules can only make it after 20:00pm. Eddie and I will be having sushi which my parents are not fans of so they won't be coming along. I guess it will only be candle lit dinner for both my parents *wink*.
I miss my baby so much! Last night was hard for me to cope. I ended up crying myself to sleep. Having my monthly sickness does not help. Emotions running wild. I don't remember being effected by it as much before this.
I don't know how to deal with missing someone this much because I haven't been in this position before. This is something new and no matter how much I try not to think about missing him or get myself busy with whatever that needs to be done at home - that all didn't work. It's him that I think about - day & night. Every second of the day, I am missing him more and more. Don't get me started on how much in love I am with him every day of the week!! If someone tells me that I dreaming all this, I'd shoot that someone. Really.
Gggrrr.... missing him sooo much and not being able to chat with him sure does not help!!!
- Babylove
I haven't bought her prezzie yet. Will do so later when I go out for early dinner with my eldest brother and wife. Plan is for both her sons & wives to come over for dinner but El & Jules can only make it after 20:00pm. Eddie and I will be having sushi which my parents are not fans of so they won't be coming along. I guess it will only be candle lit dinner for both my parents *wink*.
I miss my baby so much! Last night was hard for me to cope. I ended up crying myself to sleep. Having my monthly sickness does not help. Emotions running wild. I don't remember being effected by it as much before this.
I don't know how to deal with missing someone this much because I haven't been in this position before. This is something new and no matter how much I try not to think about missing him or get myself busy with whatever that needs to be done at home - that all didn't work. It's him that I think about - day & night. Every second of the day, I am missing him more and more. Don't get me started on how much in love I am with him every day of the week!! If someone tells me that I dreaming all this, I'd shoot that someone. Really.
Gggrrr.... missing him sooo much and not being able to chat with him sure does not help!!!
- Babylove
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!
I hope it's not too late to wish my Muslim brothers and sisters Happy Eid Mubarak!
It's almost a week now since we celebrated it and I still have the first day of Syawal fresh in my mind! The one thing that I look forward to during Syawal especially on the first day is asking for forgiveness from the elders. It will always be an emotional event for my family. Especially mummy's side!! It was rather sad for my parents and I as it is the 4th (or is it 5th??) year we celebrate Aidilfitri without my brothers and wives. Me being the single one in the family, obviously I go back to my mum's hometown with them! Not complaining - I always have a great time with my relatives.
Despite all the good times I had, I was missing him terribly. Lately, it has been crazy. Not crazy good but crazy bad! I know in any type of relationship, there will always be the up side of it and the down side. The good and the bad.. but I can't help thinking that sometimes we can avoid the down side of it. Then again, who are we kidding? I tend to piss people off when it wasn't my main intention. I think this is my PMS talking. I've just been so bloody emotional it's not even funny or cute!
I just want things to get back to normal... whatever 'normal' is!
- Babylove
It's almost a week now since we celebrated it and I still have the first day of Syawal fresh in my mind! The one thing that I look forward to during Syawal especially on the first day is asking for forgiveness from the elders. It will always be an emotional event for my family. Especially mummy's side!! It was rather sad for my parents and I as it is the 4th (or is it 5th??) year we celebrate Aidilfitri without my brothers and wives. Me being the single one in the family, obviously I go back to my mum's hometown with them! Not complaining - I always have a great time with my relatives.
Despite all the good times I had, I was missing him terribly. Lately, it has been crazy. Not crazy good but crazy bad! I know in any type of relationship, there will always be the up side of it and the down side. The good and the bad.. but I can't help thinking that sometimes we can avoid the down side of it. Then again, who are we kidding? I tend to piss people off when it wasn't my main intention. I think this is my PMS talking. I've just been so bloody emotional it's not even funny or cute!
I just want things to get back to normal... whatever 'normal' is!
- Babylove
Sunday, October 07, 2007
A quickie
Am having a bad day.
Missing my sexylove oh soo much!
Wish I could talk to you.
I know if I did, I would feel so much better.
Thinking of you constantly...
xxx
- Babylove
Missing my sexylove oh soo much!
Wish I could talk to you.
I know if I did, I would feel so much better.
Thinking of you constantly...
xxx
- Babylove
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
High
When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day 'we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You'll always keep me flying high in the sky of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
This songs suits us. I seem to think so anyway. *smile*
Loving you more every second!! xxx
- Babylove
Some day it'll all be over
One day 'we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You'll always keep me flying high in the sky of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible is easy
When we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the days
We were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through
And at
The end of the day
We'll remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
This songs suits us. I seem to think so anyway. *smile*
Loving you more every second!! xxx
- Babylove
