You didn't think there'd be a surprise birthday party for you, hey?
Hope you had a great time, I know I did and everyone else too. Mann... the look on your face was priceless!
Jules is an amazing woman! She planned the surprise birthday party at Hush@Bangsar. She said on the whole, it took her a day and half to plan. The food was fantastic and so were the company. Totally took my mind off of things!
I actually felt mum's presence and I know she had a smile on her face seeing all of us there.
Once again, happy birthday and many happy returns!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
This is for my late mother...
Mariah Carey - Bye Bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up some times
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
Theres so much more left so say
If you were with me today face to face
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3
Bye bye
And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
Am standing right here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye, bye
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this (I never knew it)
And everyday life goes on like (everyday of my life I wish)
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile” (I wish)
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by (I wish, I wish, I wish as time goes by)
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Its hard to say bye bye bye bye bye bye
So come on somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high
Hey hey, this if for my peoples who just lost somebody
So this is for everybody
You put your hand to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up some times
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
Theres so much more left so say
If you were with me today face to face
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3
Bye bye
And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
Am standing right here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamma's, daddy's, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye, bye
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this (I never knew it)
And everyday life goes on like (everyday of my life I wish)
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile” (I wish)
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by (I wish, I wish, I wish as time goes by)
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Its hard to say bye bye bye bye bye bye
So come on somebody sing it with me
Wave your hands up high
Hey hey, this if for my peoples who just lost somebody
So this is for everybody
You put your hand to the sky
'Cos we will never say bye bye
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Counting down the hours....
So ticket is ready and room is booked! Yeeeaaaayyy!!!
I cannot wait for Saturday to come. I'm taking leave starting Sat so that I can go visit my mother's grave before I leave for Cape Town. I haven't packed so half the day will be spend doing just that. Then dinner with the family and off to the airport!!! Wwwoooohhhoooo!!!
I am so excited! I can't wait to see Sexylove!!
Lalalalalalalalalalala.....
I cannot wait for Saturday to come. I'm taking leave starting Sat so that I can go visit my mother's grave before I leave for Cape Town. I haven't packed so half the day will be spend doing just that. Then dinner with the family and off to the airport!!! Wwwoooohhhoooo!!!
I am so excited! I can't wait to see Sexylove!!
Lalalalalalalalalalala.....
I really have nothing much to say except how excited I am right now about my trip to, yes.... CAPE TOWN!!!!!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Like You'll Never See Me Again - Alicia Keys
If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed
So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again
Oh Oh Ohhhhh
How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Know until you lose it
That it’s everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You’re beside me
I’m so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed
So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me
(see we don’t really know)
Touch me like this is the last time
(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you’ll love me
(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you’ll never see me again
(like you’ll never see me again)
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed
So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again
Oh Oh Ohhhhh
How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Know until you lose it
That it’s everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You’re beside me
I’m so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed
So everytime you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
(can you do that for me baby)
Every time you touch me
(see we don’t really know)
Touch me like this is the last time
(see everyday we never know)
Promise that you’ll love me
(I want you to promise me)
Love me like you’ll never see me again
(like you’ll never see me again)
Sunday, March 02, 2008
What a day!
Had a very busy day at work since it's the first week of the month. Payments and preparing notebooks. Arrgghh. Crazy! New students signing up non-stop. We came across nice and sweet students and also rude f***ed up students. Yeah, you read it right. I really do not know how kids are being brought up nowadays. One student actually shouted at his mother in front of us - unbelievable!!
I went home early, told Gesh to close. Had to rush home cause it's the time of the month and was feeling very uncomfortable. Then Ezy picked us up from home, went to the park and flew kite with LC - not for long cause it started to rain so we rushed into the car and drove to OU. LC was hungry so we had Japanese food. Yummy. I had Salmon Terriyaki - yummylicious! After that, El and Jules came to join us but we proceeded to Ms. Read... okay, now I am not surprised that I gained weight. After that Salmon Terriyaki, I had Mama's Beef Bolognaise Spaghettiette or whatever they call it. I mean why can't they just print it out "Spaghetti Bolognaise"?? I'm so stuffed now. Really.
Just arrived home about 15 mins ago. Last night, we slept over at Wafi's. Wawa is sooo adorable. I can't believe how much she adores me! Kids [s]dislike[/s] hate me. I just don't get along with kids... especially the not so cute ones. Look at my nieces and nephews on my father's side, I don't play with them or try to be friendly, at all. But Wawa... she'd scream her lungs out calling my name when she sees me - just hearing my voice would make her drop anything and come running to me!! I love that!!! Wafi is close to me but she has always been closer to El since she was a toddler but Wawa... she's really close to me. In fact, she's the closest to me among the aunts and uncles.
I spoke to Sexylove this morning. Well afternoon where I am ;). So you better prepare yourself with the talk when I visit you, my love ;). That's all we'll be doing - talk and more talk. I have a lot to sayyyy..... you just be ready.
Thanks for loving me and you know I feel it in me. It's been really frustrating lately with the changes but hopefully, it'll all ease up yeah?
I love you lots and am so looking forward to seeing you again....
xxx
- Babygirl
I went home early, told Gesh to close. Had to rush home cause it's the time of the month and was feeling very uncomfortable. Then Ezy picked us up from home, went to the park and flew kite with LC - not for long cause it started to rain so we rushed into the car and drove to OU. LC was hungry so we had Japanese food. Yummy. I had Salmon Terriyaki - yummylicious! After that, El and Jules came to join us but we proceeded to Ms. Read... okay, now I am not surprised that I gained weight. After that Salmon Terriyaki, I had Mama's Beef Bolognaise Spaghettiette or whatever they call it. I mean why can't they just print it out "Spaghetti Bolognaise"?? I'm so stuffed now. Really.
Just arrived home about 15 mins ago. Last night, we slept over at Wafi's. Wawa is sooo adorable. I can't believe how much she adores me! Kids [s]dislike[/s] hate me. I just don't get along with kids... especially the not so cute ones. Look at my nieces and nephews on my father's side, I don't play with them or try to be friendly, at all. But Wawa... she'd scream her lungs out calling my name when she sees me - just hearing my voice would make her drop anything and come running to me!! I love that!!! Wafi is close to me but she has always been closer to El since she was a toddler but Wawa... she's really close to me. In fact, she's the closest to me among the aunts and uncles.
I spoke to Sexylove this morning. Well afternoon where I am ;). So you better prepare yourself with the talk when I visit you, my love ;). That's all we'll be doing - talk and more talk. I have a lot to sayyyy..... you just be ready.
Thanks for loving me and you know I feel it in me. It's been really frustrating lately with the changes but hopefully, it'll all ease up yeah?
I love you lots and am so looking forward to seeing you again....
xxx
- Babygirl
Friday, February 29, 2008
Weight and what-not
I weighed myself this morning and it turned out that I am now 53kg!!!!!! That is above my ideal weight. I can't afford to gain anymore. I really can't - it'd be unhealthy. I have to look after my weight and also, blood pressure. I'm in my late twenties and I have to start taking extra care of my health! Ggggrrr.... 53kg - shiissshhhh.
I am thinking of leaving this company I'm working for. Actually, I am going to leave this company but I thought it'd be good to have a job in hand so that I don't stay at home with nothing to do. That would be hard for me as home is the last place I want to be on a full day. It'd bring too many memories - not that that isn't a good thing but I'm just not ready yet - and I need to keep my mind occupied.
I have been talking to two women - one is 53 and another 44 yrs old - about my loss. They both lost their parents a few years back. It was heartbreaking listening to their stories. One of them lost her father first and a few weeks later, her mother passed on. Imagine the pain, anger and hurt she had to go through. I am very glad I have these 2 amazing and very strong individuals to talk to since everyone around me is very busy with their lives. They sure don't sound old though... the way they write to me... they sound so young I thought they were in their 30s! What was shocking was that both had a relationship with MM - one is still seeing her MM. Shocking cause I didn't know it was that common - at that age.
Wanna know what else is common nowadays? Ovarian cyst. There are different types of cysts but all treatable. I read that about 95% of ovarian cyst are benign meaning they are not cancerous. It also stated that the hormones in the contraceptive pills; it may regulate the menstrual cycle, prevent the formation of follicles that can turn into cysts and possibly shrink an existing cyst. So it's a good thing, I'm taking those, huh? Anyway, at this moment every 3 out of 5 women I know personally have had the ovarian cyst. Although it isn't cancerous, it is still something to worry about.
I am thinking of leaving this company I'm working for. Actually, I am going to leave this company but I thought it'd be good to have a job in hand so that I don't stay at home with nothing to do. That would be hard for me as home is the last place I want to be on a full day. It'd bring too many memories - not that that isn't a good thing but I'm just not ready yet - and I need to keep my mind occupied.
I have been talking to two women - one is 53 and another 44 yrs old - about my loss. They both lost their parents a few years back. It was heartbreaking listening to their stories. One of them lost her father first and a few weeks later, her mother passed on. Imagine the pain, anger and hurt she had to go through. I am very glad I have these 2 amazing and very strong individuals to talk to since everyone around me is very busy with their lives. They sure don't sound old though... the way they write to me... they sound so young I thought they were in their 30s! What was shocking was that both had a relationship with MM - one is still seeing her MM. Shocking cause I didn't know it was that common - at that age.
Wanna know what else is common nowadays? Ovarian cyst. There are different types of cysts but all treatable. I read that about 95% of ovarian cyst are benign meaning they are not cancerous. It also stated that the hormones in the contraceptive pills; it may regulate the menstrual cycle, prevent the formation of follicles that can turn into cysts and possibly shrink an existing cyst. So it's a good thing, I'm taking those, huh? Anyway, at this moment every 3 out of 5 women I know personally have had the ovarian cyst. Although it isn't cancerous, it is still something to worry about.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
OMG!! I need to lose some fats!!!!
I can't fit into my hotpants! I am sooo shock when I tried it on and I couldn't button it up. Seriously, I need to lose some weight and that said, fats too! Really, I can't fit into them!!! I used to fit into them... which was just last year! I was friggin' 26 and now, I'm 29! OMFG!! I freaked out! I was screaming and shouting - my dad asked what was wrong and I told him... his responded with "Aahhh.... you're 'tembam', that's good! You've always been so thin" - Aaarrrgghhhhhh!!!! Men!!!!!
Everybody seems to think that I am slim and curvy - then why do I feel so fat?!?! Am I having PMS? Gee whizz... I don't know anymore! Arrrghhh... BC pills are so not helping! I decided to go back to Loette cause when I took Yasmin BC pills - I had headaches. So I decided to take Loette and well, apparently my SIL says that it makes you eat more - greatttt BUT I have Jace to make sure that I do not eat more than 2 meals a day now. Yeah yeah, I know... I can eat whatever I want as long as I exercise.... BUT no more fattening food for me. No more greasy food and anything that can make my blood pressure go up cause I have been feeling sick - more sick than ever lately. No more McD's for me. Really.
OMG - my tummy looks as if I am 2 months preggers - that is sooo gross!!! Aaarrghhh! I feel so flabby. I need to run. Yes, that's what I should do! Am going to take my trainers out and run this weekend. After work. I'll leave early and run at the park. Then swimming after that. Weights on Mon and Wed... yup, that can work. I will have to be very hard on myself - no more playing around.... no sirree!!!!
Everybody seems to think that I am slim and curvy - then why do I feel so fat?!?! Am I having PMS? Gee whizz... I don't know anymore! Arrrghhh... BC pills are so not helping! I decided to go back to Loette cause when I took Yasmin BC pills - I had headaches. So I decided to take Loette and well, apparently my SIL says that it makes you eat more - greatttt BUT I have Jace to make sure that I do not eat more than 2 meals a day now. Yeah yeah, I know... I can eat whatever I want as long as I exercise.... BUT no more fattening food for me. No more greasy food and anything that can make my blood pressure go up cause I have been feeling sick - more sick than ever lately. No more McD's for me. Really.
OMG - my tummy looks as if I am 2 months preggers - that is sooo gross!!! Aaarrghhh! I feel so flabby. I need to run. Yes, that's what I should do! Am going to take my trainers out and run this weekend. After work. I'll leave early and run at the park. Then swimming after that. Weights on Mon and Wed... yup, that can work. I will have to be very hard on myself - no more playing around.... no sirree!!!!
Happy Birthday, abg Eddie!!
Gee whizz... I can't believe my eldest brother is 39 today! LOL - not that he looks anywhere near 39 - he doesn't even look close to 35!!! Ggggrrrr. So for this month, he's the last to have his birthday celebrated. Next would be Wawa and El. I'm not sure if we are doing dinner tonight to celebrate Eddie's birthday but am definitely sleeping over at his place cause Wafi wanted me to since last night but I had laundry to do so tonight, I'll be spending some time with them and hopefully, some time with my darling sweetheart.
